Attention Deficit Disorder, ADD

I have ADD. With this wonderful flaw I feel empathy for the Depressed and the Overweight. As with ADD, people without it cannot comprehend it. "Just Concentrate" is what I hear on an all too regular basis. I'm sure that depressed people hear "Cheer Up" and overweight people hear "Just Stop Eating So Much" from these monotonous drones. If you don't have a compulsive behavioral problem then you simply have no clue.

I really want to focus on tasks. I really want to finish things. When my mind starts slipping, I am fully aware that it's happening. As it begins (there is no real way to gauge the timeframe) I sense my desire slipping away. In my mind I yell at myself, "Just focus you idiot, it's not that difficult".

Over the years I have developed coping skills that simply don't work in many corporations. I must, MUST, work on several (three or more) different projects at the same time. When my mind forces me to stop working on something there had better be something else to work on or I'll just start daydreaming. I can daydream for hours.

This condition is annoying. Working in a team is virtually impossible. I get bored so fast. I feel guilty about the little things that I leave undone, they haunt me. I feel bad about myself.

Contrary to popular belief, I rarely played video games or watched TV as a child. I played outside, riding bikes, climbing hills and living in my own mind. My mind contained and still contains wondrous worlds that I can change at will whenever they become tedious.

I wish that those who cannot understand my problem would simply shut up... maybe they can't control themselves either (a mental condition?)